Immmmmmmm BAAAAAACK

I don't even know how to start this post out. Honestly the past couple of days and weeks I have felt called and urged from something to keep writing these posts. First of all, little things these days just seem to inspire me and give me hope, no matter the situation. It is like I have had the blinders removed from my eyes and it feels so amazing. You have no idea how great this feeling is because I feel as though before the past couple of weeks I was just going through the motions taking granted the time and of the little things God put in my life. Now that things are changing and some things have been removed from my life that were holding me back I feel as though I can live each day looking for those little things God says or shows us.

I feel that before I was so worked up and worried about graduation as well as other things that I didn't pick up all the little things that the Lord was showing me and trying to tell me. I was lost and was caught up so much in those worries and those people that I wasn't focusing on me and I was shutting out my God because my life was fine and good so why should I need the Lord? Well guess what! Uhhhhh you kind of need him all the times of your life. I learned that the hard way. Things started happening and changing so fast that I didn't know what to do, and I spun out of control into a pit of my own destruction. God has used this to show me though that I need him. We all are going to have those times when we feel alone, and like no one is there. The thing about those times is that is when our faith grows stronger and we become shaped into the person we really want to be. Some people handle change greatly and others handle it completely in the opposite of what the Lord wants, but there is going to be plenty of instances in our lives where change is going to happen. It is just our job to listen to the Lord and use him as your guide.

We all are going to have this point in our lives where a sudden change happens like graduation or a death in the family or a blind-sided breakup or sickness in the family. No matter what that change is, the only way to get to the Lord is to listen to him and slow down. Stop thinking and worrying so much about other people because you can't change them, but instead focus on the Lord and your relationship with him. That is truly what matters to be at peace.

Dear Father, I want to pray tonight for all the people who are lost as I was and see all the worries in this world instead of noticing all the little things you do for us. I also want to pray for myself as I continue to scale the mountain and move forward in my life. As I leave those worries and those people that have held me down behind me. I also want to thank you for those people that have caused pain in my life because they have helped me strengthen my relationship with you as well as myself. I want you to know God that I love you completely and thank you for all the people you have put in my life, no matter if they are there to bring me down or raise me up. You are truly an awesome God and I know you will always be victorious in every valley I go through. Thanks for all the amazing things you have done in my life and for the people who have pushed me closer to you. In your most merciful and glorious of names. Amen